Wednesday, January 20

flesh and blood

perfection.



sometimes, i wish i were blonde. then i wouldn't look so drab and emo whenever i wore all black.

all the time, i wish i could wake up and feel that my skinniest pair of skinny jeans are too loose on me.

never... never do i doubt that two people can fit perfectly together, like a classic (and great) pair of jeans on a great-looking ass. perfect fit. thumbs up.

but perfection doesn't exist, and even so, i strive for perfection. i wish i could be perfect in the future.

a TA asked mich to tell the class what she wanted to do after she graduated. she said, "i wanna be famous."

correlation.

Sunday, January 17

chaos in my mind.

do you mean everything you say?

no.

do you REALLY mean it?

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Thursday, January 14

no.

today is a no.

the past few days have been a no.

my life is booboo.

i'm in disbelief.

i'll go.

Wednesday, January 13

HELLO.


i have a big heart.

maybe i'm speaking too highly of myself, but i know that this is true. i love easily. i love a lot.

my heart is also weak. it's always been, and no matter how hard i try to put on a confident exterior, things get to me really easily. all my loved ones know this.

if you are disliked by me, it's just about the worst thing in the world. i say this because i have a big heart. if i dislike something or someone, the feelings are coming from an overbearing but also weak emotional base. i will mentally tear you up with everything that's burning inside of me.

you don't want to be disliked by me.


love me or hate me that is the question
if you love me then thank you!
if you hate me then fuck you!

Tuesday, January 12

ver2.0

things change.

i need whatever's in my life to stay constant.

and i said Come Here.

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my mind is so consumed with STUFF that i haven't been inspired by much recently.

Thursday, January 7

The State of Your Mind is the State of Your Life//One Longass 2010 Post

i was watching the episode of lost when charlie's about to die and he makes a list of the top 5 (was it 5?) most memorable moments of his life. then i started wondering: if i were to die in a few hours, what moments would make my list?

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"so i miss you all the time now. i don't think about much that isn't you, but other than that, what we are does not feel like a cliche. it is something very completely new. i like that. i like you. i like the way you curve and bend and dip and arch and rise and fall, like a poem. i like it when you get drunk with your family, then come on msn to tell me that i'm FAB. i like sitting in the passenger seat of your truck - it makes me feel like taylor swift. i like the muscle in your jaw that twitches when you sleep. i like trains, but they take so long to get to you. i like the way you dress. i like the way you undress. i like it when you lift my dress over my head, like in the movies, you know? i like having sex with you. i like the weight of you on top of me and i like the sweat that pools at the bottom of your back. i like writing with my fingertips on your skin all the things i cannot say. i always get lines from poems stuck in my head when you are around. yes - the springtime were in need of you. i like it when you sing. i like your hair - please don't grow it long again. i like who i am when i am with you. i like how you make me better. i am learning, i am. i like how you look at me. and though i wish i did not, i love you."

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