ciroc and lemonade.

i'm too gone.

what's up with these slow days in seoul?

i like korean cf's.

큰일이다.

dkdw90: i wish i could photocopy my thoughts

dkdw90: and show it to you

dkdw90: its like

dkdw90: a perfected form of art

dkdw90: thats imperfect

been here, done that. don't read.

club eden (에덴), 역삼동:

getting so sick of house music but what a lush club filled with beautiful men and women.





i have a love hate relationship with korea right now.

is it possible to turn death into something beautiful, something that celebrates the life accomplishments of the most beloved, amazing, and succesful person i know? i smile, we smile together, i cry, we cry together, and that's when i know that we stand as one through thick and thin. (i love my fam and friends.) but no matter how optimistic i try to be, "death is still death" (as M.CHOI put it) and we are breaking down. down down down.

i remember all those times he'd incessantly want to feed my friends and me. those mornings he'd wake my bro, jay, and me up and give us 5,000 won, which we spent on ice cream and bb guns. (we got in so much trouble for shooting those around the house... probably accidently shot him a few times too. haha.) those nights he'd act like a mummy, chasing us around while we were screaming our asses off. when he used to sit there in front of me, with his johnnie walker black on the rocks in one hand and a paparito in the other, telling me that he's proud of me and that he'll always be there for me as the best grandpa in the world.

and i'm off to the city of soul.

i've been waiting for this all year, but why am i feeling so blah about it right now? maybe it'll hit me when i land... peace.

damn you're hott.

this post doesn't even need pics.

sueshikim: hell yea, fuck him

sueshikim: nd get some

sueshikim: nahmean

sueshikim: like fuck him literally

sueshikim: 7 thumbs up

sueshikim: play on u fuckin plya

sueshikim: our convos go in circles

sueshikim: it ALWAYS leads to "GET SOME"

sueshikim: maybe we should've been born guys

sueshikim: honestly

sueshikim: i think you're a player in denial

no way jose. girl be crazy. i love crazy girls. 7 thumbs up. get some.

ha.ha.

my mom told me i'm too fat for korea.

word.

i post so much now.

s1llyheymee: jess update your blog more often

s1llyheymee: i fucking love looking at it

live love.

when i'm bored, i start wondering what other people are doing. i came to the conclusion that i need to find something that gives life meaning.

everyday i get up she's on my mind
i can't get enough and i don't know why
but it's more than a crush
i can't believe it's getting deeper
all the time i wanna see her
but it wasn't supposed to go this way
she was supposed to be another game to play
and i can't figure it out
i don't know how she did it
but she made me fall...

too much on my mind.

you oughta know
tonight is the night to let it go
put on a show
i wanna see how you lose control
so leave it behind cause we have a night to get away
so come on and fly with me
as we make our great escape

BABY ARE YOU DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN?

...and today was a shitty day indeed.

because it's summertime, i really don't like feeling this way. but i can't help it. i need to change the way i think. how are some people happy all the freaking time? today was an epic fail in every aspect and i'm back to being too disappointed in myself.

"jess, you're too good."
"...good? at what?"
"at life."

i WISH i were good at life. i wanna conquer this shit and at the least be satisfied.