messed up head. messed up friend.

recently, i've been randomly thinking about one of my girlfriends gettin some ass. if you know what i mean. anyway, usually when edwin and i chat about this kinda stuff, we'll think such things as...
"oh great! she's gettin some!"
"i can sorta imagine it... that's sorta hott."
"yay! wow. exciting. cool."
etc.
this won't make sense, but i don't care because i'm obviously NOT studying. so anyway, i've been thinking about what it'd be like if one of my girlfriends was doing the... you know, whatever, nasty nasty, sexy time, let's-get-crunk-and-straight-to-the-point-fuck type of thing, and i get SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GROSSED OUT. i don't even know WHY i'd think about it but the thought of it is killing me, but it's only when it comes to HER! why am i even thinking about it? i don't know. i want to die i'm so grosed out.

am I a messed up friend?

m0nk3yg0lf3r: u are one of a kind jess

glitter.

and cali lovin.

why is it that when i have so much homework and studying to do, i have so much other stuff to do like... catch up on tv shows? ha.

sometimes, when i'm really hungry, i'll go to a food website (for example, peep www.themilkshop.com), stare at the pics, die, drool, click out, and feel full.

jk about the last part. my life.

i have to get my shit done...

new gisele shoot. take me away to nyc right now. and make me look like this, right now.

one of my fave pics of all time. i'm pretty sure i've posted it here before...

i have to make my rose flower headbands soon!!!

and have to make a SHOUTOUT to one of my best friends J A I M I E P A R K for loving my blog.
love my blog? then TELL ME so i don't think you're a creeper for secretly checking it every now and then. i know people do. i'm cocky, okay.

karla's amazing.

one of my fave karla outfits. girl's in paris... lucky.
www.karlascloset.com

fuck content; more people need to blog.

i finally watched i love you man and i slept through 20 minutes of it because i was so tired, but it was a good movie. before i watched it, girls warned me that the humor was going to be too "guy-ish" but it was perfect for me.

i went to the row last night (registered parties...) and realized why i hate frat parties and haven't gone out to them since sophomore year.

supposedly there was a hit and run on jefferson and hoover at around 3 AM. a usc girl with no ID was found dead and another student was critically injured. i was d-driving (...) around this area at this time.

not eating is surprisingly not hard to do. i need to do it more efficiently though. i want to start a fashion blog.

for the spring, i want acid-wash jeans, white jeans, rolled-up khaki shorts, light blue (denim!?) pieces, nude shoes, sexy rompers, ETC.

i don't know why we drink.

i want to take professor glass' nuclear proliferation class next semester but it clashes with advanced chinese I. the dreaded chinese... yes, i'm going back to it, to fulfill my major requirements. ni hao is all i remember.

i love san francisco and want to go back asap. i especially loved that chic little bar in union square called otis.

i love keeping up with my kpop culture.

i can't wait to go to korea this summer.

i'm thinking of trying out for the CIA after i graduate.

i want one last tatt and i've been thinking about it for a while.

i really don't like sundays, and i wish the weather was nicer and warmer today so that i could go to malibu.

i'm starting to like twitter a lot.


and i'm addicted to one song right now...

Girl I'm in love with you baby
And I want you to know
That I'm hooked on your body
And I'm tryin to be yours


and i'll leave with this one thought: WHY DO WE ALWAYS WANT WHAT WE CAN'T HAVE!?

i wish.

i wish i could wake up and feel that my skinniest skinny jeans are too loose on me.

'cause mikey reminded me.

greetings! ... recently i've been thinking about running away to seoul (whether it's now, after i graduate, etc) and i was thinking about this past summer and how BEYONDDD amazing HK was. i love hong kong. i had such a good time there. everything was beautiful, from my hotel room to the people to the clubs to the shops to the view. haha notice how everything i mention is lifestyle-related. shiet. another person IM-ed me today and told me he liked my blog. i'm so glad, so i'm going to update with a bunch of random pics i've come across the past few days. by the way! great news! today is the first day in a long time i feel good. not genuinely happy, but stress-free, a bit relaxed, and just plain old good.

my number 1 in a new shoot for something. marie claire? vogue? not sure... but she's a m a z i n g and i feel like "amazing" is the only word in my vocabulary.

love the mens shoes; love the photo. (that looks like adriana lima, but not too sure.)

laaaa lohan is one of my favorite fashionistas and this is from a recent shoot. she's getting scarily-thin though... what's happening? part of me is jealous, and part of me is worried. how does someone drop so much weight so quickly? DRUGS. do drugs. jk...

i need this. HAHA.

소녀시대's tiffany. she's so cute!!!!!!!!

topshop stuff. as tina would say, "FIERCE."

all you need is love.
right?

fail. at life.

i have a midterm in precisely 3 hours and 37 minutes and i'm far from prepared. i suck at cramming. i've relocated to leavey library, and am sitting in front of a somewhat old-looking student who uses a canvas trader joes bag as his book bag and has a hugeass sticker of jesus on his white macbook.

i have no motivation whatsoever to do ANYTHING these days. what's wrong with me? i need some sugar and spice in my life!!! ah. EVERYTHING is sucking so hard.

my current obsession. i'm going crazy.

.
my life (sorta but not really) in one pic.

alexander wang's words of wisdom to his models before they enter the runway...
awesome.

i think i should do a fashion post soon... hottest trends for spring!? what i want (but have no money whatsoever to buy) list, etc. should go study now...

...because i haven't updated in quite a few days.

i've been going through a lot recently and i feel that all these photos put together = culmination of my feelings. visual, modern... simply beautiful. some of these just represent who i am.

the pool at the newly-opened w hotel in hong kong. this is one of the most beautiful things i've ever seen in my life.

이민호&정일우. friends.

do i even need a caption for this?

it's all about trying.

one of my favorite pics.

preppy love?

so sexy...

hotel lovin'.

i want a room like that.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

END.

oh my god.

AMAZING!

everyone has to go.
let us go.

two of my favorite artists of all time.

kenny and thur say i need to see a psychiatrist.

i hate being emo and i hate sounding emo but life sucks these days because i'm not happy. why aren't we ever satisfied? why do we always want what we don't have? there is only one thing on my mind and it's holding me back. that's all i'm going to say because if i keep blabbing, this blog is going to turn into a "STORY OF MY LIFE" type of thing, which i don't want at all.

i want that jacket! and her long, skinnyass legs.

i love stars and peace signs. this outfit looks comfortable and it's cute and simple. wish i could pull it off...

more guys need to dress like this.

HEH.

end.

(random) actor of the moment.

came across this fellow on a website. at first i thought he was a model, but he's only 5'8''. ew......... HAHAHAHHA why do i hate on short guys? it's hard being a semi-tall korean girl. a guy who's at least 6 ft tall... is that too much to ask for? i think so.

name: 유아인 (what kind of name is that?)
movies: well recently he was in that bakery movie antique with my husband 주지훈...
why i like him: total fashinistaaaaa. fashionisto.
age: one year older than me. ha.

and here he is:

gd vibe, no?

love this picture; it makes me want to go to korea.

amazing style.

i mean what the hell kind of guy can pull this off.

no, i didn't write that shit, but he hangs out with my favorite!