do you ever feel like you're missing out?

as if everything good is happening somewhere else?

i want to be part of the "in-crowd". i'm not talking about hanging with the popular kids because these groups of people don't really exist anymore in the non-schooling world, but i'm talking about being around people i can learn from. or going to all the places i want to go to, even here in seoul.

i want to experience everything.

i don't understand people who enjoy being alone. i'm jealous of them. i wish i was more independent. loneliness kills me... it kills me very slowly. i'd rather do everything with a friend than do some things alone. does that even make sense? it makes sense to me.