don't leave.

this is the first time in MY LIFE i want to tell someone not to leave. but i know my words can't change anything and that this person's departure was inevitable from the beginning anyway. why am i so good at putting myself into situations where the timing is... bad? i can't say that i'm sad. it's actually a mixture of different emotions. sorta sad, sorta feels like something is missing, sorta happy that i finally know what it feels like to not want someone to leave, sorta regretting not saying anything. haha.

i don't really know what i'm trying to say right now, but i guess i wish i could have seen where it all went.